Midnight Memoirs

Looking at my cell it is exactly 12:39 AM. I'm awake...eating grilled veggies....watching Deadliest Catch...and reflecting....

Sometimes I feel like my life totally reflects a movie. Like, I'm living in my own "Breezie" version of Sex in the City...THE TRILOGY! But instead of 'Mr. Big,' my antagonist will lovingly be called: 'Hum Di Lah' (I borrowed that name from my cousin el.O.el)...So! This situation really has me thinking...is it for real?? Or should I be on my guard? Hum Di Lah is a man...in every definition of the word! Interesting, manly, funny, spontaneous, supportive, all of those things most SANE women would look for in a man right??? [waiting for a response....]

It's what I'd look for, provided I were sane [looking around hoping everyone other looked that last comment] Annnnnywhoooooo, I have come to discover that the old saying is quite true, "You never know what you have until you don't have it anymore" or something like that. I know I care, I know H.D.L. cares, but when is all this caring going to lead to something?!?!?! I've never been one to hold my tounge when it comes to expressing attraction or interest in a member of the opposite sex, however deep feelings tend to gimme the heebe geebes! Why do things that feel so easy end up being extremely complicated? I'll never get that....I hope H.D.L. feels the same, if not, I NEED TO KNOW IMMEDIATELY!

.....to be continued....